just sayin...

so...there is a possiblitly that i could get cleared medically in the next week or two. yay! perhaps it will happen. if this happens my orders will start being written and i should leave a week or so after i get cleared. or...i could retire in thu. who knows. lol. but that is the latest update for me. hopefully i can get to the warmer parts of the u.s. soon. i hope all is well with all of you guys! take care and if i get to florida...maybe i would get to come home and visit on the weekends. take care and i will let you know as soon as i hear anything. no funny stories to share on this blog, but i will get on it.

well, im not sure what to say!

first of all, thank you so much for all of the birthday comments. it took me 20 minutes to read them all. if you only knew how much you all blessed my heart...it was amazing. thank you to "the preachers-wife." you totally rock! it was a wonderful birthday gift.

on the other end of things...i now have a real mattress and a real pillow. how nice! i have like a hotel room comforter or something, but hey, it's not an itchy old wool blanket right? haha. i believe the wind chill is currently -20 here right now. yes...-20. ive got to be the luckiest girl alive. ya know, it wouldnt be so bad if we didnt have to walk everywhere. oh well...it's an adventure. let's see...what else? ooohhhh....always just buy your own water. yea...i took a sip of a friend of mines to take some ibuprofen and needless to say, it wasnt water! water does not burn like the substance that went down my throat. my bad! it was clear. so that was a nice birthday present. the feeling that someone lit a small fire in my throat. nice! many laughed at me until they cried...i coughed till i cried. next time i will just get my own bottle. ah...and did you know that the people at wal-mart do NOT like it when you play football in the aisles? who woulda thunk it? hehe...didnt exactly act like a 28 year old then. but hey...we all have to have fun right? well, i believe i am about to get kicked off the computer. my time is up. i love you all and appreciate your thoughts and prayers. God is good, and so His "little birdy" that sent out a blog telling people about this little sailor. thank you! take care, and perhaps i will have more stories of humiliation share with you tomorrow.

is it possible? a light at the end of the tunnel???

well, plans changed a little over in the frozen town of great lakes. apparently my chief found it in her heart to move us to phase 3 liberty tomorrow! happy birthday to me! whoohoo! im a bit happy. chief also informed us that the man who signs the waivers in pensecola has been out for the past 6 weeks taking chemo treatments. he is now back and hopefully the ball will get rolling. maybe soon i will be in a warmer environment with a beach and the ocean breeze blowing in my face. haha. perhaps it will happen. im still dealing with whether or not i want to be in the aircrew program or go seabee. im praying intently every night! either way, i should get out of here soon! oh happy day! the snow is beautiful, but im ready to be able to walk outside without icicles forming on my eyelashes. and im not kidding about that at all. when it is -30 wind chill....it happens! it's crazy! thank you for all of your prayers.

discouraged but not defeated!

do you ever feel like things are progressively getting worse??? lol. yea, i felt that way today when i got finished with my doctors appointment. basically im in the same situation i was in before. i do, however, know that my iron levels are at the perfect spot. so, i guess thats good? im just waiting to hear from pensecola. last night i read a devotion that simply said Lord, if it's Your will, let it be. so that is what i'm going on. i pray nightly that His will be done in my life. my human nature leaves me discouraged with the things i heard today. my faith and knowing that He has a plan in all of this...no matter how down i get...that is what keeps me from being defeated. i know He is in this because after i found out im still going to be here for a long time they let us know that reguardless of how long we have been here we will not be going to phase 3 liberty for atleast another month. without His presence, i would have just broke down right then. phase 3 is basically more freedom. i dont have to lock up my phone every other day and if i want to stay off base overnight, i can. and even when i do get to go to phase 3...they are putting us back in the building i just came from. therefore i still get an itchy wool blanket and a plastic mattress as opposed to a quilt and a real mattress. hahah...it's okay. you can laugh. it is all i could do. either that or cry and who wants to mess up their mascara over an itchy blanket..right? anyway...i wanted to let you know how the appointment went. so...there ya go. :)

just an update...

i went to medical today and had to have more bloodwork done. yay! whatever. i dont mind getting stuck... but i have had my share in the past two months. normally getting called back for more tests isnt a good thing. to be honest, i dont know what is going on with all of my stuff right now. however, i go back monday to talk to the flight surgeon. i am just going to ask him flat out if he thinks i will be here another 4 months before my iron levels get to a "shipping out" point. if that is the case, i am going to reclass. (get another job) either way, i should have some type of information about when and where i go. so just pray that the luck i have been having with the doctors changes and i will know something soon. thank you all for your prayers.

another day in my life...

well, im back in illinois. yay me, right??? lol. my flight was less than satisfactory. don't get me wrong. we didnt crash, so that was good. it's just, the entire trip i felt like a turtle in my pea-coat. you see, the burley man next to me had gas. u know..normally i am cool about these things and just go on like it's nothing. (yes, im one of those people who laugh if someone poots. sorry! it's funny.) unfortunately, it wasnt a time to laugh. it seemed like a time to cry, seeing as how my eyes were watering from the stinch. i am not even playin...i was almost to the point of telling him to go to the bathroom because i think he had an accident and just didnt realize it! but i just hid my head in my pea coat and hoped it would help. anyway...that was my flight. an hour and a half of nastiness. he was a nice guy though. lol.

so, today is okay. i was so afraid i would hate being back. while im not excited about it, i did a little devotional this morning that helped me. in a nutshell....GET OVER YOURSELF! in a round about way. i am trying to keep a positive attitude about this situation. like i said before, God has a plan. He has worked things out perfectly in this whole navy process, so why should i wonder what is going on now? so, that is my rant for the day. hope you enjoyed the story of my misery. :) it was great to see everyone while i was home. God allowed me to enjoy a wonderful church service and see many of my friends. it was awesome! okay...i have to go sweep or something now!

do i have to go back???

well, it's getting to be that time. i must fly away to foreign lands so that i can take the place of the other brave souls. no...not the ones who are protecting our country, but those who are cleaning the toilets and swabbing the floors. trust me, you would call them brave too! the body odor from the new recruits is so thick that you need a breathing mask just to walk from one compartment to the next! i am quite embarassed to know that i smelled that bad for an entire week. but how can you smell descent when you are fighting 80 other stinky girls to get your body slightly wet by one of the 8 shower heads in the bathroom???? oh yea...and you only got 3 minutes. really? i can honestly say that i thanked God for allowing me to have bad eyesight during shower time! the birth control glasses were ugly, but i got to take them off when i had to shower. oh yes....He was looking out for me even then. haha!

i have enjoyed being here with my family and friends. thank all of you who have written and had me in your prayers. i am ready to get to school so i can start my career in the navy. i know that God will get me out of there in His time. it is definitely hard...just waiting. i want to be out doing something exciting and meaningful. i feel like i am getting nowhere and serving no purpose. however, it isn't for me to decide when i go or how long i stay. i just have to try and keep my spirits up and know there is a reason. i have been able to share my faith with people while i have been there. during bootcamp i read my bible a lot. people saw this and wondered what i was doing. they would ask questions and i would answer the best way i knew how. i guess it was an okay answer because they would come back wanting to know more. so if you could just mention in your prayers that God would give me the words to say...i would appreciate it. sometimes i dont know how to answer their questions and i feel like i may mess things up. after a while the questions start getting extremely complex and i want to be confident in what i tell them. God is at work there. i am excited and scared all at the same time. but hopefully, if one accepts Him into their life then they can help and another and another.....perhaps we could have a small revival in the town of great mistakes...i mean, lakes...great lakes! again i thank you for your love, support and prayers. it is surely felt.