do i have to go back???

well, it's getting to be that time. i must fly away to foreign lands so that i can take the place of the other brave souls. no...not the ones who are protecting our country, but those who are cleaning the toilets and swabbing the floors. trust me, you would call them brave too! the body odor from the new recruits is so thick that you need a breathing mask just to walk from one compartment to the next! i am quite embarassed to know that i smelled that bad for an entire week. but how can you smell descent when you are fighting 80 other stinky girls to get your body slightly wet by one of the 8 shower heads in the bathroom???? oh yea...and you only got 3 minutes. really? i can honestly say that i thanked God for allowing me to have bad eyesight during shower time! the birth control glasses were ugly, but i got to take them off when i had to shower. oh yes....He was looking out for me even then. haha!

i have enjoyed being here with my family and friends. thank all of you who have written and had me in your prayers. i am ready to get to school so i can start my career in the navy. i know that God will get me out of there in His time. it is definitely hard...just waiting. i want to be out doing something exciting and meaningful. i feel like i am getting nowhere and serving no purpose. however, it isn't for me to decide when i go or how long i stay. i just have to try and keep my spirits up and know there is a reason. i have been able to share my faith with people while i have been there. during bootcamp i read my bible a lot. people saw this and wondered what i was doing. they would ask questions and i would answer the best way i knew how. i guess it was an okay answer because they would come back wanting to know more. so if you could just mention in your prayers that God would give me the words to say...i would appreciate it. sometimes i dont know how to answer their questions and i feel like i may mess things up. after a while the questions start getting extremely complex and i want to be confident in what i tell them. God is at work there. i am excited and scared all at the same time. but hopefully, if one accepts Him into their life then they can help and another and another.....perhaps we could have a small revival in the town of great mistakes...i mean, lakes...great lakes! again i thank you for your love, support and prayers. it is surely felt.