it was a trick!

so i wrote yesterday about how worried i was about our deadly pt for the day, then it was easy? hahaha...THAT WOULD BE TODAY!!!! if you ever thought that holding yourself in the up push-up posistion for 8 minutes was easy...think again. after holding myself there for as long as we did, and knowing it will happen daily, i will look like i have shoulder pads in all of my clothes. lol. i just got a mental picture of that. anyway...it was a bad day. one of the petty officers decided that i would be the one he would pick on all morning. i was thinking...if you could see what my ankles looked like, you would be happy that i didnt quit on you. but i wasnt going to say that. i just agreed that i was an out of shape sailor. my ankles by the way look a good bit better today. im still gonna grab some ice later, but they are alright. now i have to figure out why the arch in my foot hurts. if its not one thing its another.



in the midst of a cloudy day in the firey pitts there was one thing that made me smile. we were holding ourself in leaning rest (the up push-up posistion) and i thought i was dying. really, i thought i was dying. lol. i heard a sound in the distance. sweat is pouring out of my body, im straining so hard to hold my body up that a tear popped out. it was wierd. i wasnt crying. there's no crying! there's no crying in pt! haha...sorry, big fan of a league of their own. neway...im shaking like crazy then i look up and out of the clouds comes all 6 blue angel planes! it was like ghosts appearing out of nowhere! they were so close that it made my ears pop! im not even joking. so for about 20 minutes of pt time they were flying over. that just pumps me up. if only it could make my tired little body run faster. lol. afterwards we ran back to the barracks and i continued to hear the petty officer go on about how we were pathetic and blah blah blah. fun times. and that was the end of our torturous day. no bueno! however i made it through another day and am getting ready for another. there was one funny thing that happened today though. we went and played team sports the 2nd part of the day. i always play basketball because im not really good at volleyball. i played against a new guy today and i talk a lot when we play to distract people. the guy stops the game and asks me where i am from. i said alabama and asked why. his response..." because you sound like paula dean! i love it!" that was a new one. however it made me laugh and brightened my day. lol. so this is the end of this sailors nonsense for the day. i hope you were bored enough to read it. have a good one!

ya just have to laugh.

today was a dreaded day. there had been rumors of it going to be the worst day of pt we could imagine. im automaticallly thinking...yep, this will be the day i kick the bucket. my knee and ankles are sore, my body is still tired from the 1.5 hours of sleep i managed to squeeze in after watch. its gonna be a great navy day.

we head off to the pt field at 0620. im thinking the worst. im doing my best to keep up, but im sore. the field is soaking wet as we run out there. mud is flying everywhere, soon to be all down my front side, back side and all up in my hair. (that part is actually kind of fun...when it isnt 50 degrees outside like it was this morning.) here it comes, the worst day ever! it is all i could think of. YALL, it was the easiest pt day we have had in a long time. no kiddin! i mean, it was tough, but not at all what i had expected. now, the quarter mile sprints that we did were not my favorite, but still a good day. THEN...we got back here an hour earlier than we usually do. im thinkin this could be a good day after all. and it was except for one thing. i came back to my room took my shoes and socks off, only to see that my ankle looks like this. not only this ankle...both of them look like this. ladies...i must admit. i believe i am a bit different because all i could do was laugh and go to different rooms showing people how fat my ankles were. this picture doesnt do it justice. im not even kidding. it was so big. the swelling is around the size you see here now. so it is doing okay. nothing a little bengay wont help. the funy thing is i didnt turn or roll my ankles at all. they just swelled up like this. i believe it is from standing hours upon hours upon hours a day. perhaps you could let me know what you think. im not a doctor. i just think its odd. lol. have a good one. maybe i can come up with something interesting to write about next time.

belay my life! lol

things started looking up for me. i shouldve known better than to get comfortable with that. lol. we found out today that more than likely overnight liberty will be taken away from us after this weekend. it is possible that we keep it for a little longer, but it doesnt look good. u see, people here love to think they can get away with things. underage drinking....of age drinking and acting stupid. the past 5 or 6 weekends there have been alcohol related incidents. therefore, we are all going to get punished. not so much fun. i was so excited about being able to see friends and family on some weekends and now that could be taken away. not to mention we are now getting trained by rescue swimmer instructors. i just thought my body hurt before! lol. apparently they are trying to get it up to a 50% drop out rate and this is how they plan to do it. it may just work. however, i will not say d.o.r. (drop on request) and i will not spell dorito if someone asks me to. haha. did you know that as beautiful as the beach is.....it is not fun to run in the sand. just sayin. my ankles and knee are killin me right now. but i love it. i love the fact that im still here and im not backing out of this. my body hurts, but my heart tells me to keep going. when i look like a sugar cookie during beach pt (which i was told about this week. they make you exercise in the water then in the sand and you look like a sugar cookie. lol) i will just laugh. haha....noone will take a bite out of this sugar cookie! sorry, it was funny in my head when i thought it. : ) i just pray that God keeps my body intact long enough to finish this. i just want to know that i can do it!

wow..so im jumpin off my soap box now. its a stormy navy day, so ya just think of the crappy stuff i guess. hehe. i know it will get better. im going to keep my head up and push harder and harder every day. i hope you all have a wonderful day!!!!!!

sweet!

so, do you remember in one of my last blogs when i was talking about seeing the blue angels while we were on the pt field? and how i was upset that i didnt get to see it? well, i got to today. it was awesome! they were so close. and so loud! i hated that i was running and couldnt stop to take it all in. it was amazing! nehoo...just thought i would share that i finally got to see it. obviously im bored. have a good day!

blessed

i just want to start by thanking everyone for the prayers they put out for me. i passed my phase 2 test friday night and was given my liberty card at 10 pm. i came to my room went to sleep and woke up at 5 am to get ready to start my journey home. lol. i was stoked! the bad thing was...i had no clue how to get home. it really didnt matter to me becuz all i could think of was getting home to my family. hehehe...it probably should have mattered. i left the base and just took to driving. i was on a mission. i was looking for signs to point me in the right direction. okay....just because you see a sign for a city in alabama...it doesnt mean that you go that way. oh well, i learned. fortunately im not as stubborn as some people i know and i do not care to stop and ask for directions. heck...i was laughin so hard at myself by this time it was probably the safest thing i could do. yes...i had gone 20 miles in the wrong direction, but i acted unphased by it and went on my way. either way, i made it home by one and was able to see my family and friends.

on to church. to be honest with you. im not positive what all was said during the service. all i do know is that my heart was consumed by the Holy Spirit by the end of it. sometimes the Lord just gets a hold of you and you get what you have needed for a while. and well...i got it. there is a song that the choir did...amazing grace with my chains are gone. MAN! "my chains are gone, ive been set free!" it's overwhelming, isnt it? "unending love, amazing grace." and that line...not just love, but UNENDING love. it doesnt stop. EVER. i know this, and ive always been taught this. but it is still so hard to wrap my mind around. but thankful is what i am, and will always be.

im sorry to go on, but i felt like i needed to write this out. lol, its not my normal nonsense from a sailor, but its good. God is good.

i guess i wouldnt be me if i didnt throw in something silly though, so...an exercise called the dirty dog...my backside hurts! but it works! im sure you have all seen it done before or have done it. down on your hands and knees, hike one leg like your waterin a tree, (at a 90 degree angle to really feel the burn :) leg straight out behind you, then water the tree again and back to all fours. just sayin, if you have never done it before...try it. you may never do it again, but atleast you will get a good laugh in.

a lovely day

alrighty people...i have a test tonight. just throwing it out there...if ya wanna whisper a prayer, i'd appreciate it. it's a test that will give me phase 2 liberty. i can wear civilian clothes, drive my car, come home on the weekends :) , leave base on the weekends and all that fun stuff. so yay! i want to pass it! not many people do on the first try, but i would love to do it.

other than that...i got to pt today and yesterday! i never thought i would get excited about doing push ups and running. (among other things) yesterday we got to swim. alright...i can swim but im no michael phelps. just sayin. we swam for an hour straight and i never realized just how tiring it is! it is an awesome workout! however halfway thru i just started singing dory's song from finding nemo. "just keep swimming, swimming, swimming." and i made it. lol. ofcourse i got a little tickled and took in a bit of water, but it was funny. no blue angel sightings today, but im hoping to see them again next week. it's like, you go into top gun mode and get all pumped up! hehe. okay, im rambling on so i am going to go back for muster. have a great day!!!!

fly by!

just a quick post. today was horrible, yet awesome. i havent gotten to pt in 3 days. im really upset because i have been put on watch for the past 3 mornings. i feel like im falling behind...moreso than i already was. however, while i was on watch today i got to watch the blue angels practice. they would fly over...looking almost like they were going to knock the top of the buildings off! it was amazing. ofcourse if i had been on the pt field (or so i hear) it is a notification point. meaning it lets them know when to do a maneuver. i hear that they fly over the pt field then shoot straight up when they get to a certain point. so close that you can feel the heat from the burners! i gotta get out there! hehe. neway. i get to watch them practice atleast on tues. and thurs. so i am stoked! hope all is well with everyone! love ya tons!

didnt know i could hurt in this many places!

so i am here. aircrew candidate school! ladies...if ya want a good exercise plan...lol, i have one. my body hurts in so many places right now. i should be lookin like a supermodel soon. not really, i will probably look more like a body builder! so maybe you dont want this exercise plan. it is beautiful here. i look out my window and see the ocean. the beach is maybe 1/4 of a mile down the road. i kinda like it here. :) if you havent ever been to the aviation museum here you should plan a trip. it is so nice. i went this morning and was just facinated! there are a lot of awesome things to see here. i am so excited to be here and to be training for this posistion in the navy. i cant wait to see you all again and i hope it will be soon! i love you all! for all of you in gatlinburg right now...have a blast. i went last year and wouldve loved to have gone this year. lisa is an amazing speaker and you will all be blessed! oh, and come see me in pensecola. it's not that far away!

bitter sweet...

i finally made it to the south. we got on the plane at 2:40 pm friday evening. time to take off, but wait...theres a delay. so we sat on the runway for 40 more minutes. lol...that's okay...i think. we should still be able to catch our connecting flight to pensecola. HAHAHAHA... do any of you remember home alone? you know, where they sprint thru the airport to get on their plane. that would be us. we made it as they were closing the doors. but we made it. i dont know if you can understand the excitement i felt as i landed in pensecola friday night. i get off the plane in my dress blues and start sweating immediately. it was awesome. we go to pick up our luggage and it wasnt there. not exactly a wonderful start. our ride came to pick us up at the airport and took us to the base. my friends who are in pensecola already are asking me where i am. i told them im in the barracks but not theirs. they told me they kept some of the aircrew candidates with the air traffic control sailors. AGAIN...HAHAHAHAHA. they do, but not the newbys. at 3 am my luggage arrived....soaking wet and dirty. lol. i spent the night in the wrong barracks. i got up the saturday morning to go get things straightened out and i got a heartbreaking phone call from my family. my grandfather had passed away that morning. i didnt know what to do. my world was a whirlwind.

this was the man that had an influence on my choice to be in the military. he too was a navy man. i so loved talking to him about it before i left for bootcamp. he was so excited. where's my navy girl? that's what he called me. lol. it kills me that i didnt get anything accomplished before he passed. i know he is proud, but i wanted to exchange stories with him. laugh about things that other people didnt get. he was my buddy. and i will miss him very much. all i know is that when i get back to pensecola i will not give up. there is a 10% passing rate for females in aircrew. i fully intend on being in that 10% because one...noone tells me i CANT do something and two...im gonna have a chief hovering over me making sure i dont quit. lol.

i just ask that you keep my family in your prayers. he truly was an amazing man who loved all of us dearly. and the feeling was mutual. it is hard to let go, but exciting to know that he will now have all new stories to share with me once we meet again.